Am I enough?
I’ve transcended this fear before.
But it comes back.
Returning in new flavours and textures.
Cropping up in new situations.
This fear is here again.
The worry – that perhaps I’m not doing enough.
The fear – that perhaps I won’t be enough.
The thought – that perhaps this isn’t good enough.
The niggle – that perhaps I’m just plain old not enough.
And the trick with this little fucker.
Is that you know it’s not true.
So you try to ignore it.
You try to believe it’s not true.
But this story of ‘not enough’ seems much deeper than just a thought.
It’s like a grey mist that snakes its way into our heart, our head, our body & flavours everything we see and touch.
That other woman’s success.
Just further proof of your inadequacies.
That thought you keep having.
Just further confirmation that it must be true.
The story of inadequacy.
Our fear of being ‘not enough.’
Of not having ‘enough.’
Is the core wound at the heart of almost every single woman I know.
And I’m no exception.
While my story of I’m not enough was once centred on my imperfect-acne-scarred-skin – it’s now taken a new form.
Is my teaching enough?
Am I embodied enough?
[The irony of this isn’t lost on me]
I share this because it appears NO ONE is immune to this core fear.
I share this because we all will come up against it time and time again.
If we are women on a path of growth.
If we are expanding.
Into new ways of being, into more open potential.
Then we are going to come up against ourselves.
And at the core of almost every challenge we face, will be this core fear.
We must learn to transcend this core fear – efficiently, effectively, easefully – if we are to continue growing.
The trick is that we already KNOW that this story is not true.
But knowing something & embodying it, are two different things.
I can know that I’m made of the same stuff as the stars.
But does that make me always feel like an infinite seed of potential?
Gotta tell you – it doesn’t.
Sometimes shit feels really human over here.
Knowing the theory of how something works
Is not the same as embodying the truth in your cells.
When one part of our system is locked down in fear & avoidance of this uncomfortable doubt – it’s not possible for our inner feminine essence to flow.
So for this easeful & effective transcendence of the core fear to happen – we as women need to do something radical.
We need to welcome it in.
Our body is screaming the ‘I am not enough’ story at us because it’s the seed of our forsaken power.
Like a signpost, our body is showing us where greater empowerment is possible.
Our body is giving us an opportunity to take that life-force back.
Welcoming in the core fear of not enough appears highly counter-intuitive.
Opening your heart to feel the pain of this story?
Opening your body to experience the sadness of this fear?
Opening your mind to surrender into the depths of this wound?
Yes.
All this yes, and again.
If you are unwilling to open and feel,
then this energy will remain bound and stuck.
Yet if you dare to open your heart & feel the full impact of this fear.
Your action is one of welcoming, opening, loving.
Love is the key to liberation.
Can you love your story & pain of not enough?
And through that love, reclaim your power?
Truth is, we can’t banish our blocks by magicing them away.
This kind of ‘medicine’ further reinforces there is something wrong with you that ‘needs to be gone.’
The embodied truth is:
If you’re not willing to feel it,
you’re not willing to free it.
When I am willing to open & feel the story of my not enough, in truth, it breaks my heart. It cracks me open – and allows me to penetrate right to the heart of what’s really going on.
It’s only through loving this core fear that we can mid-wife it back into wholeness. It’s only through FEELING this fear that we can open to it.
It’s only through embodying this story that we can find our way home.
It is only through embracing all of ourselves – even the painful parts, that we are whole.
Now it’s your turn – let me know in the comments:
What story of ‘not enough’ are you ready to open, feel & liberate?
I’ve just done my morning Primal Feminine Flow (and embodied movement practice) and liberated many of my own fears of not enough.
Specifically, I had to face the fear “am I embodied enough” – which is a totally fucked up question that I too had to move through with all the tenderness that entails. This is why I was called to share this key embodied message with you today.
For those of you called to explore your embodied feminine energy even more – download the Feminine Magnetism Map, a free download exploring the key energy portals for embodied women.
