Emotional Embodiment Series
Allowing Anger & Releasing Rage

February 22, 2018


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One little sentence and the dam was unleashed. A torrent of frustration, outrage, anger and fierce words began bubbling up like fire in my body. I said harsh things to the man sitting across from me. The rage inside me felt so totally disproportionate to the experience at hand. And yet I couldnt stop.

Have you ever found yourself in a similar situation, where someones comment triggers a wave of frustration, anger or even rage? 
Perhaps your boundary was compromised, someone dishonored you, or you just decided to stop dishonoring yourself?

Dealing with anger and rage isnt easy.  
Its uncomfortable to feel it in your body.  
Its risky to express it to others.
We feel like were more likely to hurt another than help the situation.  
Sometimes its so intense its actually frightening.  
And then the guilt comes, the shame for not having ourselves better under control.

Dealing with anger and rage is a totally natural part of the human experience – anger and rage are just as spiritual and just as healthy as joy and happiness when we deal with it in healthy ways.

But most of us dont. Most of us deny, suppress, avoid, and gloss over the anger and rage. Stuffing it back down inside us until it does inevitably explode.  jeremy-bishop-72584-unsplash-minToday were exploring allowing anger and releasing rage through one of my own less than perfect reallife events.  

Everyone gets angry sometimes. Everyone feels enraged.  
Its a natural emotion and part of our spectrum of sensitivity. Yet its a lot harder to embrace than emotions like peace, joy or happiness.  

Anger is not a very flattering look, and most of us try to avoid it at all costs.

Perhaps anger and rage get such a bad wrap because its expressed un-consciously most of the time. Anger is often associated with being a victim; or blaming others. Rage is often associated with some gross violation or some dramatic circumstance.

But like all emotions – what we dont express, we store. The muscles and tissue and bones of and cells of our body remember all of the incomplete and suppressed experiences that weve rejected.

And like all emotions, when we’re unwilling to feel it, we’re unwilling to free it.  

Recently my man made a casual statement. Hed changed his mind about a decision we had mutually agreed up. This kind of statement would usually result in a heartfelt, conversation and negotiation. But for whatever reason, this statement didnt invoke a polite discussion from me.

I was enraged.  
I was so angry at him for not seeing why this decision was important to me.  
I was so frustrated that what I wanted wasnt being supported.  
I was angry at having to always fight for what I wanted.

But my rage and my anger were totally disproportionate to the situation at hand.

Have you ever felt that?

Like you tap into an emotion, perhaps of anger and rage, and its like a tsunami thats so much bigger, and wider, and deeper than you expected it would or should be.

Our bodies have a certain threshold for containing emotions. There is only so much we can put in storage.

While at first a little bit of Netflix or ice-cream or shopping might take the edge off our overflowing internal warehouse of unexpressed and unintegrated emotional tension, eventually theres just no more storage space left.

In the case of anger, we begin to find frustration in the smallest things.  
We begin to feel resentment towards those involved.  
Our temper shortens.  
Our bitterness grows. 
In these subtle moments, we have a chance to catch the anger, before our inner volcano explodes.

But sometimes it catches us unaware. As my man finished his statement, red hot lava began rushing out of me. I was hot. I was angry and I was saying words I wasnt even sure I believed were true.

Anger doesnt make us nice people.  
Its no wonder we try to shut it away.

But the gift with anger is that there is always something tender and truthful at its core.
Anger and rage is always a cap for something more vulnerable.
Something that we are trying to avoiding even MORE than we
re avoiding the anger.

As my own hot lava cap was expressed, in a way that Im not particularly proud of, I knew that if I tried to hold this back, if I let the shame I felt at not having it all together take over – it would just explode some other time in some other context.
So, as I continued to express my strong opinion, I sincerely apologized to my man. And I showed him the desperate sadness and loss that lived underneath.  

Its easy at this point to want to retreat, from ourselves and from those we love.  
Its common to feel shame for our anger.                
And to justify the anger to ourselves and others. gabriel-matula-300398-unsplash-minIts much harder to show whats really going on underneath.

For me, as the anger was expressed and the truth was revealed, I was amazed. How all these events – his comment, my anger, and the ultimate sadness that was uncovered – relate is beyond my mind.

Its not logical and its not-linear.

Because the body isnt some mathematical equation. It doesnt store our emotions or memories in a chronological or alphabetical order. Its utterly non-linear, dynamic and a little chaotic in the order it forms. But its infinitely wise.

My man gratefully accepted my apology. And as that anger and rage were released, held me while I shared with him the deeper grief I was feeling.

When we dont permit our anger  
We dont permit our tender truth coming to the surface.  
We dont heal the deep wounds that are trying to complete.

Your anger is a gift.
Your rage is a blessing.

When you embrace it, within your own body. You permit it. And you liberate it.              DSC_4398-minAs women the more we do this, and the more we share our stories of anger and shame, the more we can release the shame that keeps us silently fuming and find the tender truth thats just waiting to be discovered.

So now its your turn – Id love to hear from you. Do you have trouble allowing anger and releasing rage?

5 Comments on “Emotional Embodiment Series
Allowing Anger & Releasing Rage”

  1. Thank you Jenna. This is exactly what I need right now. For 37 years I have never allowed myself to feel angry. I’m scared of it and growing up seeing anger and violence in my home, I’ve avoided it all costs!

    Now as an almost 38 year old woman I’m filled with so much resentment and worse, guilt and feeling I’m a ‘bad person when I do get angry.

    Thank you for your post today. I will pray and hope it helps me to become friends with my anger, and to see it as a gift.

    Much love to you.

    Nicole x

    P.s Any more you may have on this topic would be greatly helpful!

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